5 years ago in Trondheim when I could’t possibly guess what the future will bring
After a failed Ashtanga yoga home practice this afternoon ( I say failed because my mind couldn’t possibly be there and I mean what is yoga without being present?), I decided to have my girlish Saturday time and just relax. The journey is approaching and there are so many mixed feelings. It is some extreme happiness with sort of fear of the unknown.
But let’s come back to my girlish time. I love my beauty routine! It is absolutely amazing what Japanese traditional music, a hot bath and a face mask can do to you. I feel fresh and happy and suddenly I can see things more clearly.
Recently I went from an individual yoga practice to focusing on how should a teacher look at her students and try to help them deepen their own practice. It is a transition moment and as any transition you feel in between and sometimes confused. It is one thing to adjust yourself, it is a completely other thing to help other people adjust and see themselves. I looked on my teaching schedule and there are 17 sessions from mid-February until now. I have became so focused on working on my teaching skills that even though I have been practicing yoga and working out very often, my mind would always wander and ask itself what about this, what about that…
During my regular yoga classes at the gym I am more focused on the Swedish vocabulary the teacher is using and on how the students are aligned than looking at myself. Sometimes it is strange I can no longer just look at myself, but I see others as well. Since forever I have been like a sponge, always absorbing more and more and trying to deepen my knowledge and learn something new. All the preparations for this teaching course have thought me so many lessons and first of all they thought me to be strong and do not give up on my dream. I am not afraid of hard work, but I am afraid of living a life that was not intended to be for myself, a life where I take no risks. You need to take risks in order to develop yourself and you should never give up on your real self. Be real, be strong and dream big! This is what I say to myself.
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