Stories of a new entrepreneur

Being self-employed has many ups and downs, but it is definitely the place where I found my freedom and the opportunity to do everything I complained I cannot do when I was working for other companies. There gonna be good days and many more bad days, but in the end it’s up to you how you handle it, take decisions and keep going, because this is only the beginning. Most of the time you gonna meet resistance. You gonna meet a loooot of people that do not believe in you and do NOT believe in your dream. Some are gonna tell you straight forward, others you gonna have to read the skepticism on their face. It is not easy to cope with that, but the only thing that matters is to trust yourself and stop listening to what others have to say. It is your life! What you do does not affect anyone but yourself. On the road to success most of the people will not support you. Be a grown up and accept it! Most of the people will smile to you only when they can see concrete results and only when you reach small milestones.

I love what I’m doing and I’m thankful to the skeptical people for showing me that I’m doing the right thing. That if I want to be brave and build up this dream, then I would better trust myself so badly even though I will have to stand up alone.

My dream is to be a professional yoga teacher. I am dreaming that some day I will be able to survive from teaching yoga.I mean I love it, but everyone has to pay bills in this modern society. Your dream might be different from mine but that’s not what it matters. What it matters is to follow it. You should better start working on that. This life it’s too short and most of the time we forget about it. Maybe it is because we are still young, maybe because we get into a vicious circle from where it’s hard to see the light, maybe because we are too brainwashed by what we were told to be the only way to follow, maybe because we refuse to believe it, BUT it is SHORT and you’d better start living it. If you don’t start living your dream and stop hiding into your comfort zone, you will end up building other people’s dreams.

Knowledge is useless unless you use it wisely.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying to become hippie over night even though you can be a hippie if that’s what makes you happy. You can be whatever you want to be BUT be HAPPY! Having a dream is the starting point but then you need a plan and set some goals. Nothing happens over night. You need to stop being a chicken and assume it, that there is a lot of work involved, but it is rewarding when you do something that you love. You are actually given the chance to trust yourself, to learn how to finally do that and be whoever you want to be.Just be!

Don’t wait too long and don’t wait for dramatic life changes to wake you up. Preferably would be to open your eyes before that happens.

Yours,

A new wanna-be entrepreneur  🙂

Sweden I love you!

It’s been a year and a half since this little girl packed her life again and moved to a new land. This time unlimited, which definitely made a huge difference from my previous journeys. It is so scary, but in the same time so awesome to pack your courage in a suitcase, push those fears away and let the enthusiasm take control, be brave coz that’s the only way to keep your heart open and your mind inquisitive.

Scary at first, Sweden has thought me so many things about the adult version of me. Sweden made me grow and has definitely showed me the big difference between being lonely and being on your own. Sweden is not the warmest or friendliest place on earth, but it is definitely a place that gives you the big opportunity to get to know yourself much better. I am so grateful for that! Sweden has also showed me than I am an adult, but an eternal child in the same time. I hope that part of me will never fade away.

Sweden is also helping me to discover my full potential and make use of it. I have always wanted to have a job that makes me feel fulfilled. A job that makes me use my brain, keeps me healthy and helps me contribute and give something back to the community ( might sound hippy, but it’s actually that simple to be HAPPY). Being a yoga teacher is definitely something so rewarding. I work so hard to grow my dream, but I am so happy every evening I put my head on my pillow and fall asleep with a new yoga flow in my mind.

Sweden is also showing me that I’ve always been a strong girl even thought I might have not known that at all times. Sweden shows me that I am a girl, NOT just a girl. During my teachers’ course in India I realized that I have somehow become Swedish in my manners and in terms of interacting with the people. I no longer liked to be kissed or hugged by any stranger, but I prefer to receive an honest and warm hug from someone I care about and cares about me. And I no longer feel ashamed to be straight forward about my opinions ( okey that might be my Romanian side or I’m just getting closer to 30s and wiser hah ( HOPEFULLY)). I no longer want to be treated like the girl from the group and I sometimes have a huge shock when I interact with some men that treat me in a different way just because I am a girl. I sense the sexist in the group much easier than before. I don’t laugh at sexist jokes ( never did anyway).

Sweden makes me strong and it’s the place where I started to re-grow my wings. How could I not love it? It is the place I started to call HOME…

Fall seven times,stand up eight

5 years ago in Trondheim when I could’t possibly guess what the future will bring

After a failed Ashtanga yoga home practice this afternoon ( I say failed because my mind couldn’t possibly be there and I mean what is yoga without being present?), I decided to have my girlish Saturday time and just relax. The journey is approaching and there are so many mixed feelings. It is some extreme happiness with sort of fear of the unknown.

But let’s come back to my girlish time. I love my beauty routine! It is absolutely amazing what Japanese traditional music, a hot bath and a face mask can do to you. I feel fresh and happy and suddenly I can see things more clearly.

Recently I went from an individual yoga practice to focusing on how should a teacher look at her students and try to help them deepen their own practice. It is a transition moment and as any transition you feel in between and sometimes confused. It is one thing to adjust yourself, it is a completely other thing to help other people adjust and see themselves. I looked on my teaching schedule and there are 17 sessions from mid-February until now. I have became so focused on working on my teaching skills that even though I have been practicing yoga and working out very often, my mind would always wander and ask itself what about this, what about that…

During my regular yoga classes at the gym I am more focused on the Swedish vocabulary the teacher is using and on how the students are aligned than looking at myself. Sometimes it is strange I can no longer just look at myself, but I see others as well. Since forever I have been like a sponge, always absorbing more and more and trying to deepen my knowledge and learn something new. All the preparations for this teaching course have thought me so many lessons and first of all they thought me to be strong and do not give up on my dream. I am not afraid of hard work, but I am afraid of living a life that was not intended to be for myself, a life where I take no risks. You need to take risks in order to develop yourself and you should never give up on your real self. Be real, be strong and dream big! This is what I say to myself.

My way

Here I am in our living room ( which meanwhile also became my temporary yoga studio), listening to one of ABBA’s famous songs because Hey! once in Sweden…I have this huge smile on my face and feeling so grateful and happy for having such a wonderful and inspirational man in my life, for daring to dream big and for giving 100% of my energy in order to fulfill that dream, my big dream.  I am grateful for my good friends who support me and understand the big step I’m taking forward. Thank you people for being there! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!!

Today is the 27th of March and in 19 days I will be above the clouds on my way to Rishikesh, close to the Himalayas, in the Northern part of India. I am holding my passport in my hands, I look at the visa page and I almost cannot believe it…Oh my God! I am almost there!! I mean OMG I am going to be studying yoga in its birth place in the Himalayas!

This past  year was  the year of big changes some good, some more dramatic, but in the end that’s how life is supposed to be. Learning how to live without a father on this earth, but opening my eyes and seeing that even if it sounds like a cliche it’s just the pure truth “Love never dies”. Learning to build a new life and family with my dear husband in a new land. Rediscovering that only  something done with all my heart will make me fully happy. Learning to grow up and open my eyes wide and see the things that really matter. I’ve been working so hard in order to prepare myself for this yoga teaching course. Both my body and my mind have become stronger and I know now that I’ve never been a person who goes halves but one who gives 100% and fights, fights, fights in order to accomplish her dream. Nothing comes easily and if it would be like that would we really appreciate it to the fullest?

We are getting so close that it gets scary and that’s the first sign we are on the right path. Keep going I say to myself! If you do something with all your hearth and you work hard, it is impossible not to get something good out of it. It is impossible!

Cheers to new beginnings!